Want to understand what is the use

 Today is April 20, 2008 13:49:54, wife have come so far, and now really miss my wife, my wife, you know?
These days I have been thinking why we get here? our future will not be there? my heart of hearts know that we love each other, you love me deeply, I also wholeheartedly in love with you. This is all heart, clear to understand. But why Two separate people so in love? I think the main reason for this is that I'm inside, I do not know how to love you, not to show in action, perhaps as you say, I love you is selfish, it is hypocritical. I admit that I love for you is selfish, I just want you around my love, my love surround you, protect you properly, do not let you be a little bit injury, there is something to help you solve all her husband have always been self-righteous love you, but few know how you feel, and finally slowly evolved imaging you said when I was in a good mood, love you, bad mood When not love you. wife, her husband did not want to quibble, her husband know where the problem, her husband will be corrected, and will love you with good, to hurt you.
may be the reason for the age is still small, perhaps personality reasons for it, I encountered some things to solve the problem is too extreme, many people can not accept the fact I know, I have been changed, but still late, and now you and I are deeply hurt two people I'm sorry, this is not my purpose. Maybe I approach a good point, and now we have and the good, not into something like this now. wife, her husband was really afraid, afraid of her husband a wife no longer reasonable, really scared, so do everything possible to hurry back to her husband wanted his wife around, my wife knows her husband can not do without you, too dependent on you, my wife, you tell me how to do? how can I do? you out I'm a man is concerned, I really worried about you. you go to Poly last year, hotel work, where quarters are provided, and I worry that you live in the dorm, you're new here, they will not bully you, you will not be tired in that work ? how to do if a bad mood? I'm not you, I'm really worried about you. I'm really worried about you. So when you go I do not want you to go, I am angry, I just want to frighten my wife do not want my wife to go, I get a degree thesis, the body of these things scare you, I'm afraid, afraid you're out wronged, afraid someone to bully you out. But I never thought I was doing so in a match that you, finally If you press the thought of death, I know that I regretted later, I did not dare bother you, but would also like you, worry you, sneak out to get a public phone to call you, but I do not know the phone through what to say, I know your temper, I do not know that I will not get you to forgive, and if so, I would not like a child, and not in such a reckless thing to do, and now at home, my mind is all inside You figure, we are reminded every day together, bit by bit, happy days, bad days, really, I think that was my happiest day.
Today, I want to understand these things But what is the use ah? history will not repeat itself, time will not be back, how can I do? I can not love another woman, would not pay so much in love, I will all my love and miss you are left to hope that one day we can again later. I do not know when we'll meet again, when we meet what will become two, 30-year-old? 40 years old? or even 50 years old? but there are that I clearly know that I love you, this love will not fade over time, gradually, it will only get stronger, and I know this love belongs to you alone and will not have a second individuals and to share with you, always you.
wife, I do not know what I will do graduate may go to Hangzhou, but I do not want to leave Beijing, so far away from you, I do not want that; But the penalty of 50,000, I can not go, I am very contradictory, in fact, all the time I am worrying too much, do their own sin, everything is there for only fruit.
do not know if I take you will think of me, will not contact me, I do not know, do not rush to think. I really hope you do not leave Beijing and I speak, together with us.
my mobile phone number to there will not change, and may not start every day, but I will always keep it waiting for your message.
everything goes like you, I do not want to bother you, but I really want and You say a few words, this is just wishful thinking to me really do?
so I left, I will have all the things we were together a good save. Maybe one day.