Hang up the phone the night forest stream, I happen to own at home, utterly confused. Her phone Jiutong my heart, I again think of those eyebrows and leaves the network between the first day eat only a little. Was, Lin Jian was the first to know my heart and mind of a good friend, she has done and leaves me feeling good eyebrow first witness, did my Goutoujunshi and sincere well-wishers. Ye Mei, Ye Mei, this word again hit my heart filling, although the heart is already numb the surface, such as shells. inadvertently written text according to plan, I turned to see fish out an old favorite pass time, , quizas, quizas, singing in the couch, I, unconsciously, tears aspect, ah, tears will not stop when the original, when the blood never dried. distances are eternal? regret makes perfect? abstinence demonstrated the light of human nature? as a spectator, and I look forward to a normal and vulgar to watch, I repeatedly Xiji Zhao once immersed him and hug her, to spend a memorable night with, even if only once! desire and spirit to achieve will be a the perfect intersection of conspiracy, what constraints, what shackles, what barriers can all go to hell. But never, he and she, just the idea that stubborn buried deep in my heart, back and forth in the day to day living, let Youth Fanghua wind. He told the Cambodian temple wall of the secret land away from the old walls mottled. She Youde residence he had had a glimpse of home, the tears flowing down quietly. That Enchanting Years, actually lonely, depressed so very distressed. My heart was deeply shaken, or maybe it is common to feel bad that everyone did the achievements of the story belongs to that era, the era of a Mood for Love, an era no longer reproduce.
Lin Jian arrived the same day, sent me a short message point d, and then for a time no further contact. At this point I knew she was , knowing enough money, not spend her time Banke.
few days later, I was accompanied by his son as a Cinderella's dress how they change the color? . is not it. the clothes. have you been busy? tomorrow night out of dinner? Two other people do. One is I look at the people who deliberately, one is my best friend. ah. do not know the sister born within the shy, afraid to meet strangers you? The next day evening, I came to like about the south near the restaurant by the lake. across the thin curved gravel road between bamboo, into the antique store. Yuanyuandekan met up and waved my arms to greet the forest stream, A slim woman with long hair Rupu back to me. I shook the arm in response, three-step and make two steps towards their predetermined table. seated, Jian Lin gave us a brief introduction. We against each other with an instant visual, smiling nod. The network name called the Chanel woman appeared calm water, even a slight moment of panic but also deep-water Ripples. My brain is like chaos abruptly horse riding, and even a little bit of trance I gently hand a little spectacle frames, and Lile Li decline in the face side of the hair, in the end of deliberately unemotional subconsciously swallow a bit to say: trips to the bathroom. talking, drinking tea, waiting for the late people, I decided to tight-lipped.
few minutes later, carrying a chapter from week to catch the bag slightly exaggerated in, separated by two or three steps to repeatedly explained: ; Oh, sorry, so that everyone waiting. just came a news conference, a traffic jam. for a while, I own three cups fine. I know that this is your usual style. can fine your wine? Do you mount savage master who had ah. fine you how to present a few jokes? not betrayed a shocking ignorance is not. to say, it should be fine. Come look at me, as it happens I was watching her, and two pairs of glasses under the four eyes with an instant mix of awkward and shy taste. This shy, and when the green Qingdouchukai ignorant, the heart such as rabbits are not exactly the same , but from a source at the unspoken secret, from knowing each other a deeply intimate identity, as if to say: rushing over to help her pack onto my side of the ebony window sill. To this end, our eyes naturally meet again. introduction. remember ah, now you really have three glasses of fine. , Closer to home, the following announcer: This is the chapter from the capital were recorded weekly. from the week, I told you many times this is a good sister, young talent Li Xiaobai. This is my house of Chanel, the famous beauty, IT sector White-Boned Demon. in fact live together in the same city 10 years, and even last month, she also did an interview had come to our school, either because the day I just want to temporarily catch up classes, you have to accept on behalf of her interview with young teachers. However, we never knew, or that even if we were in the normal understanding of the reality, can only recognize those gorgeous fantasy fur: science, education specialist running mouth, the smooth-talking newspaper reporter and college of the homes , temperament elegant young teachers. ever since the day met, we can not deny each other feel good feeling, mixed with the deepening of mutual stellar surface, under the silent level similarities and secretly breeding a fatal attraction unknown boundary.
We, as normal, but to reciprocate with a good friend, she sent them to the newspaper, I read between the lines to find a special look at her name. She sent tickets to performances, suggested that I should know right away who can not like the seat of your pants types of art, from opera and ballet. time coincidence, we will go together the way home often become enthusiastic appreciation of the classroom. I gave her the books she needs to find good information, waiting for her head from a high in Malaysia JEEP jump to collect it. In his spare time, from weeks is an environmental NGO's officers and gets a lot of written information, disclosure of the paperwork, we are familiar, these are basically all my work done by the for her, she is often necessary out interviews, text debts piling up, stay up all night beat the text, has become a habit, I made her happy to share this, because my life she was trained in the beautiful and spare no effort to praise me, I work harder so they had.
to the following year's Spring in March, the weather we've known each other for almost a year. We like to have between the time to submerge under the surface of the tide the other side of love, this gradual change so that we worry about surprises. just the emotion of love , clear and simple, almost no doping depression sad color. Once you have the flames of love looms, concerns and worries began to frequent patronage, there was a loss of calm. We suddenly very difficult to do naturally random date from time to time, and we look forward to frequent secretly meet, and understand the expectations, the idea of deliberately control these Nannai. This is not the time to meet is through the deliberate control of the outcome after, just right for those in contact with the first to see or not see, with different feelings.
grasp the feelings of the heat, we are too familiar and less because of the urge to move forward, as is often just too mature and sensible and will be the beginning of conscious Shawei. we all know, one step forward, probably will not see the mountains, mountain, watching the water will not be water; have or icing on the cake fails to reverse this trend to become faded denim Fairview. reason, such as Hsiao Sa autumn, without reservation, already strangled wilt Dayton failure of the love of power, we took turns struggling in the autumn and spring bath in the swift change, and that pace has never been inconsistent, the result is, there is no time for the spring to overlap, although the spring of her first times I secretly inexplicable in expectations walked again, although the oncoming force has become increasingly fierce. if not that of a hangover, perhaps we have been only the most intimate friends, ambiguous hidden between the appearance of calm indifference, tepid, steady. Similarly, If a hangover is not that we will be unable to receive an extremely bright meteor across the sky of the wonders of life, not as thoroughly and completely to the intersection with the soul of such a homogeneous, not line to the water to the poor, sitting watching clouds from time to time. no assumptions, no glad or sorry, only a few incidents in the vast sea of time and space started slowly, irreversible, and go with the flow.
night, we are very depressed, particularly from the week, because We found that the sensitive, has been too long into the dead end I do not know how to choose, seeing the feeling of fatigue has already been felt boring, and this is what we deeply feel the fear, because we are afraid to lose a feeling, and the breeding of the closely the impulse to seize. night, wine pale and tasteless, if not much more, we just drink a drink to my heart condition complicated part of taste alcohol anesthesia, while the activation of the other part. We then began to gradually increase our base of the tongue getting stiff, and we began to feel dizzy head, we began to expose the eyes of an emotional, we all drank too much. wine is the color matchmaker, wine Zhuang people looking, 酒逢知己千杯少, these words all the stakeholders neatly to throw the alcohol itself, in order to ease the pious people who build a good step down the steps of: Yes, not me, is alcohol. I am not in the final analysis we still alcohol, in fact, this is simply nonsense, drunken people, after brain does not awake not only suppress the real desire in the hearts of reason to be deprived of the fence Fanghuguishan, Sailing with wind, do whatever they want, others through the glass, pouring their own chest of pine, and nothing more.
we surprisingly light a fire, but the fire did not devour everything. the initial spread of fire, we found that we basically can control the flame, we seem to be in love To the sea mountain essence, to its dregs. Gradually, we can freely be lover and friend, and sometimes exposure to the feelings inside, lingering endless, painstaking investment; sometimes get out to out, sit on the sidelines, as if entangled in the emotional vortex is irrelevant in the other two.
We have never said ; love miss Although I'm sure we are creating a master of love letters, love letters need to burn the life and passion to Compose, and when we met each other, leaving more memory is already deep in the cold after burning ashes, just about the technical level , playing with words in their hearts, the network can download one thousand million letters, to see through each other's hearts as their own, not so many words to lay out rhetoric. Our love letter, is the memory of those who ingratiate themselves with fragments and bits of sentiment silent on the TV, I put in the safe in the 51 wine stoppers, they carry the former alcohol, faint and helpless people rule over the vicissitudes of life, love of Live Flesh shock recovery.
I've ever seen Chanel, obviously, she remembered me. Back then, she is Lucy's girlfriend, we have a well-known bar in Shanghai had seen. I do not understand, the coincidence is based on the fact summary, or storytellers, who Liyan Gu mantra get mystery. In short, I met like that before, after thinking has nothing to do with the real facts. At that time, I just left eyebrow leaves 3 months, the basic paradox in the soul hatched live state, was arrested difference to the Shanghai to attend a seminar organized authority.
dinner after the end of the day, I was laughing owned cluster of acquaintances, and strangers in the forest, semi quietly away, I lit the hotel was abandoned in Behind me a man wandering aimlessly near the Bund, the heart leaves badly miss the eyebrow, and your life with this crazy miss suppression, lonely and sad for a time but can not speak no words, ask yourself what you want, but also How, numerous positive and negative debate, evenly matched, and ultimately to the familiar figure of 11 that entered into the cell phone screen, it is necessary under the dial key press when the mouth, Lucy's phone call came. ; God, you do part-time in the Ministry of National Security? ! want to tell you that I called, recently received a very tough case, to trouble you help me find the information I find here. where are you ah? sit out okay? ah, alone in a foreign land as a stranger, I Zhexiang is Chouchangbaijie it. This is Chanel. and you're in a city. a lot of repeated questioning in Lucy, very condensed account of what had just happened to do. She did not talk a lot, but I caught her under the skin, a resigned sigh, a sigh is the role of these increased again with our numb loss, heavy ice again thrown into ice-cold heart of despair. I know the network when the leaf eyebrow, Lucy and forest streams are a golden couple as a model, they both are my addition to the initial leaf outer eyebrow make a fellow human. The four of us, the establishment of a deep friendship and loyalty, such as appreciation of the reality of which two pairs of loving each other husband and wife usually leaves each eyebrow when passing through Shanghai, if there is time, is determined to be with Lucy sit some. Four individuals, from the formation of a class structure in society, far from the collective, like a short step and a thousand miles, leaf and forest, but already within the small to create a harmonious intimate sense of belonging, in this small environment, you can temporarily not affect the smooth flow of discourse, let yourself go. forest stream of romantic by nature, Fanglangxinghai is truly implement after Lucy's departure, which is probably not a lot of people know. Lucy is her first second term girlfriend, also a full sense of her true love, the first college girlfriend is a Sentimental tortured romance. I met two women when they have been together for 3 years, what do I have to envy , actually the dark beauty of Health Overtaking Zeixin. when the final curtain falls, far beyond my expectations, and the reason they never secrecy, I will not ask.
forest streams is the kind of mouth the more lively, more heart lonely people, the surface smooth-tongued, indifference, secretly do not know how to chew a mouthful of teeth. just a short time, a hasty replacement of her girlfriend several times, was signed into a website posting, lonely than fireworks, I was attracted eight characters consuming pondering. I think when it comes to see through, to be divided three ways: see through into true love, digestion and serious attitude, looks vigorous enough to do, explicitly or implicitly raised feeling, but a real responsibility; see through the so-called love, disillusioned to reach the realm of sex is zero to pull recluse, the situation is not trapped, I am unable to take care of this situation, because I am not a fish will not know the fish are happy or not happy. Lin Jian
mantra, in fact, is precisely to escape the game with her own attitude to find themselves unable to complete self-examination, she wanted to delay self-reflection and introspection, then sent for self-comforting reason: to see through, to ledge, into the site Buddha, the first to do enough, so first disappointed in the heart. I do believe that the luxury to see through is not enough to act as a knowledge base needs to be done, if seen through a priori, necessarily do enough to blind digestion. see the world in a grain of sand, sun no new thing under these words of wisdom is to remind people not doing enough. Imagine, after doing enough to create bruise everywhere, ghosts and monsters from the division, deserve what is bound to see through such a late harvest biting desolate, their own flesh and blood can play. It is said that nowhere is life after the wake of the bitter, lying in the mud wallow wake hang around after, the backbone of the lack of a tall and straight, it is life's tragedy. Lin Jian is not no see through the wisdom, seen through the lack of courage, across terraced rice paddies staggered while he looked for a time do not know what is good, simply buried in the busy doing enough to fool his numb the heart and the dream did not die off.
tell the truth, Chanel very beautiful, concentrated description, is In fact, such kind words there is no arena in addition to sycophant. When you first see her, the impression of exceptional beauty will break into your feelings in a solid, no matter who you are. to see the day again Jian Lin met her, my surprise gave me hurriedly left their seats, but a moment later, I no longer as surprised, I realized that this is not entirely impossible. Empress Dowager can go beyond the shock of many of the fetters of probability, invincible, because When I dig deep in my soul and found himself as it was temporarily lost in a picturesque face the temptation of dense halo, the closest she seems completely out of instinct, not from suppression. the roots of troubles that the top is not entirely fair hat, is not in vain buckle in the concubine, Daji, Yang Yuhuan, and Chen Yuanyuan their heads, the roots of the The troubles, which really teach people to feel a sudden and heavy boat segregation, the home country's breathtaking fall disprove a charming appearance great charm, and even if under the mask of heart but a snake. people, ah, put aside all the appearance of what is your kernel? Could it be that only some hormones in the end dominate your demeanor, mind desires? advertised, those related to the purity of love, but a dazzling coat cover for them? I tried to escape into the dark and difficult to predict the internal dimension of life to explore with great concentration and found that clusters of human nature is full of contradictions, reminding us of scenes I walk in the dark endless channel, in front of faint light, but often not grow in the happy moments and a flash light out of this.
encounter in Shanghai, I, and Chanel is to take the same flight back, this time coincidence and Lucy from the arrangement. She sat beside me seat, so I have inexplicable tension and confusion, I frequently look at the airline magazine ads plus boring, palms are slightly sweated emerge, though I clearly know, I do not know her, let alone love her. arrived After the car before I hit her home before returning to their homes. she get off, smiling in business card handed to her, I actually flattered to search like rummaging through your own business cards, and quickly handed. ex post facto I found myself this move is extremely unusual, I am a pursuing civil use of the people, humble people thousands of miles away under the resist is the truth, almost no over-enthusiasm for the energy of others, but I actually give it away detour , and never easily seen by the contact person to a stranger Yimianzhijiao.
after a drunken night, Chanel had opened up my cell phone, voice hoarse and uncertain, I hope I can go to her home, because of her whole body tingling, no one is being devoured Lonely company. across the microphone, I feel the emptiness of her heart, a bottomless black hole will appear on a front of calm and gentle tone of voice I used to appease her a fragile time. I know tonight, her feelings are a mess on the square of the ruins, will be building again from the bright lights of tall buildings, and I thought to myself is not an architect can play nice, though not without a moment of excitement I am overlooking. I am a deserter is about to escape, or unconditional surrender of a lose-lose battle. put down the phone, I remembered the phrase chilling words: sorcerer called up to face the ghost of their own, are often powerless. Fortunately, there is no bottom line I will eventually rejected the call, I know I the powerless, and that does not need to personally understand the proof. who said it, people do, day in watching. vivid fears to wake up at the crucial moment, is a very fortunate thing. I fear, with no the end of the temptation, fear they will walk in to the cliff edge of life unbearable.
I have talked to unreservedly follow the adventures week: ? Oh, of course. the famous beauty. for a moment. calls. However, if you told me that this is true your body what happened, I think I will not be surprised. the soul is better than all the hypocrisy. a boundary. Although we have repeatedly escape, self-appointed primate of all things. , nor is it hypocrisy, more precisely said, should be limited. more inclined to be more conducive to their own direction, and that this choice is more intelligent. from the week, you say that a person can go far beyond the limits? far away, now, I only wish I could walk as far. white, I think my heart is very old, the time can just be lazy lazy. Moreover, even if wants to know everything, nor representative can be done. Romanticism and Realism is probably right on both sides of a coin. not the same. However, I think, I can only go to one person, even bitter. They were spoken by a return to basics philosophy. I thought a few words: the road is the one to come out. can blaze a new path. However, I would like to add: love, under a hail of bullets to the dead. III. The point is that the dead man later, is closer to true self, or away from the original intention to become dissidents. , Rouchang thousands, biting anatomy to play against one of the ways of our romance. we have joined the quiet surrounding unbounded silence gently with both hands from the week combing my hair, my hands gently caress nose her eyebrows. a long time, I used almost silent throat breath to say: ; from Zhou Pingjing quiet back at me, the same class in the silent voice: myself. alone cost of sad frustration, compromise on the strict order of reality, not made love, but without saying forever. recall the concept of silent heart Run is the only thing we can remember that I often cry, phase two hearts concept, without reservation, sympathetic, pray each treasure, just like a waterfall spectacular cliff achievements, from the week feeling I want nothing of the despair from the neat grow flowers, not tender and beautiful, not charming, But the shock has Gujue. When I looked it was lost in flower, so the verse came rushing mm deep autumn, the king in writing poetry / deep in the world fall out / get has not been / has long been lost in the loss. is ah, this is bound students and only in late autumn flowers, harvest lay heavy barn, leaving the field open mess after the harvest, which does not have a soaring and the prospect of the season.
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